Friday, January 20, 2012

certain seating plans on the MRT

I take the same train everyday
the 06.57, housing three 1-year-old institutions to voyeur
the 40-something housewife clutching a basket empty
the short-skirted teen with self-esteem made from fleeting glances
and the straight-laced male executive wedged in between
conjoined triplets craving
what little acknowledgement of their existence
beyond the beeps of their punch cards
 on society’s gantries

the auntie is charity’s druggie
enacting a daily habit
of dominating thrones, only to abdicate
to the most wretched case she sees
and then mistaking gratitude for willingness
to listen to life stories
when everyone would rather eavesdrop
on everyone’s iphone
or not at all.

I know where the guy stands, ramrod straight
the way he looks at the opposite window
without excuse
a brazen criminal after the tunnels of Tiong Bahru
to memorise every minute detail
whereupon in the evenings after work
he would pore over photos on facebook, half-naked
and finding none, settle for someone else instead.

the girl likes to stand at raffles place
after a generous 7-minute display of her thighs
to offer an additional serving of the rear
even while she endures incessant droning and a warm fuzzy feeling
pretending to use her phone
she celebrates others’ lives online
everyday’s 23-minute ride
starring weird auntie and stalker uncle
where likes and comments and cattle prods
become vindication of one’s worth.

people play-pretend isolation
when in fact, they desire to touch
more than just plastic hand-grips or cool metal bars.

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

palliative care

silent foetus -
when you went, it was head first
severing the cord only made you grow more
at life they hunger, they beg, they claw
with refreshed firmware, just plug-and-play
like you saying through a Zeitgeist, hey, I'm ok

stillborn child-
silver-haired, but frothing the same bile
no longer the jaundiced yellow-skin, but forever blue
only green waves, breaking the humming plateau
how they crash, never to return
only foaming waste in grey machine, churn

alone I wait, here in the wings
until the most frequented went rare, and then ceased to being
ever-patient, with permanent room-and-board
one becomes just a number that they jot
so here’s to you, my last ode
then let my hands rest down on your throat
unspoken rest, ten years late
asphyxiate, asphyxiate.

an addict’s morning

auntie downs a cup of drugs
to which her lips smacks simultaneously, in their
caffeined agreement and
an experienced tongue follows, consuming every
last bit of excitement
forking her way around each hollow
like a lover’s appendage
in another
-                 - she can only fantasise

and then to conclude her daily routine with a
240-volt smile
powered by the three-pin socket
on the back of her palm-sized mirror
a spotlight that demands immediate fall-in
from her new plastic recruits
satisfied, the drill sergeant inspects her tanned veterans
at flimsy attention on stamped soil
and commands them to henta-taki twice
before pulling out a shoe brush laced with white kiwi
to flush all traces of today, tomorrow, and every other day’s high
down the porcelain sink of her forgotten youth.